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Innaleyum 12 mani kazhinju kidannappol...kidakkenda thamasame undayirunnulloo ente kannukal pathiye adanju....njan pettannu thanne urakkathinte sukha lokathekku yathrayayi.Pinnedulla etho oru nimishathil enikku chuttum prakasham parakkunnathu pole enikku thonni..vyakthamayi nokkiyappol athu thonnalalla ennu manasilayi.Aa prakashathinu naduvilayi oral roopatheyum njan kandu.

Parichayam illatha roopabhavam..njan adimudi aa roopathhe nokki. Short back and side hair cut,clean shave,punchiri mayatha nishkalankamaya velutha mukham,kayi madakki vecha white linen shirt,Shirtil thookiyittirikkunna black Ray Ban Aviator sun glass,kayil ARMANI yude new model black watch, khaki colour relaxed chino pants,kalil nallavannam polish cheytha brown colour GUCCI leather shoes...ake mothem eetho van nagrathile shopping malil ninnu irangi vanna roopam..otta nottathil thanee all ee nattu karanalla ennu mansilayi.

Ithinu munpu kandittillathathinal ,njan "aara manasilayilla "ennu chodichu.Athinu Addheham punchirikkunna mukhathode "I AM GOD ALMIGHTY" ennu marupadi nalki.Ithuvare daivathe kandittillathathinalum,Ithra style freak aaya godine patti engum pradhipadhichu kettittillathathinalum...aa marupadi enikku vishwasa yogyam aayilla.Ithu mansilakkiya adhdheham.."samshayikkenda..njanakunnu..daiyvam..najnakunnu ellam "ennu paranju..ithavana entho a vakkukale njan vishwasichu.

Daivam  "ninakku ennodu ninte oragraham parayam..njan athu nadappillakki tharum" ennu paranju..ee samayam ente manasil orayiram ladukkal orumichu pottiyenkilum..etharam kadhakal oru padu kettathinalum athinte okke avasanam tragedy ayathinalum njan onnu madichu.Appol daiyvam pedikkenda dayiramayi paranju kollan paranju.Appol ente manasiloode "Customized Harley-Davidson,Ferrari 599 GTO,L&T yil Structural engineer,Puthiya construction company,Powerful person in world,Part of indian cricket team,angane angane.avasanam athu Pathmanabha Swamiyekkal panakkaran ( manasil thonnippoyi..khsamikkanam)..avide vare ethi karyangal.Pakshe appol pettennu ente vivekam vikarathe thalachu...ithonnum ippol enikku athyavishyam venda karyangal alla ennu enikkariyam..athu kondu ippol enikku athyavishya mayi venda oru karyam parayan theerumanichu...Njan dayivathodu valare vinayathil " enikku eppozhum samadhanavun santhoshavum thonnunna  oru mansu thannal mathi veronnum venda" ennu paranju.

Daivam ennodu kankal adachu thurakkan aavishyapettuu..njan kannadachu thurannappol enikku munpil prakshavum,Daivavum illaayirunnu..pakaram...njan veretho lokathayirunnu enikku chuttum orupadu allkkar ..avar chirikkunnu,njanum ...kaykal kottunnu, njanum kaykal kottunnu....vaykathe thanne enikku manasilayi njan entho mental hospitalil aanu ennu ...pakshe  ente manasil sankadangal illayirunnu ,naleye pattiyulla akulathakal ilayirunnu ..poornamaya snathosham mathram.

Njan avidem chutti nadannu kandu ..ellavarkkum santhosham mathram,enikkum.Pettannu enikku  chuttum  veendum    prakasham parannu athil oral roopavum .Aa all roopam ennodu paranju" Ashok ennekku 8 maniyayi collegil pokende.."Valere pettannu ente manasille santhoshathinte puthu nambukal aaro pizhuthu kalanju pakaram sankadathinte vadavrikshangal vechu...Pakshe njan kaanukal murukki adachu..njan agrahichirunnilla.ente manasinte santhoshavum samadhanavum kalayan ..enta puthiya lokam kaiy vidann....